its over

calm down before you freak out...hmm way too late for that so next question...cant really write since i have to head back out the door like now...but if i dont i think ill freak out completely soon..class was hard because dr bunch seriously made everyone talk about what they are feeling with leaving and of course i only said enough to get by but when it first got started i wished she wouldnt call on me because i was afraid i would cry..controlled myself while i talked but kept myself detached far enough that i didnt feel like crying anymore..we went to lunch and everyone from both classes was there..teachers said goodbye to everyone and we really wont be a group again until we graduate and the awards ceremony..now that im not with the crowd anymore everything is kinda crashing and its turning into this huge nervousness..i want to be by myself and i keep telling myself not to cry but classes are over for me..i found out all of my grades today and there alright..i wont see any of them anymore..im moving..i really wont see anyone anymore..i really didnt think it would bother me so much..i really didnt think i would ever leave either..i dont want things to end..everything is becoming so finalized..and i dont like it at all..i really didnt think i would cry..everything is going to fall apart