is it ok to cry ? is it ok to ask for help? i find it really stupid that i have to wonder about those kinds of questions..starting to feel really detached..sadder than anything but still just a little out of it at the same time..last day of field and i dont want to go..i dont want it to be the last day..i dont want to move and not be able to come back..i guess i could come back to visit but when? after january ill be across the state and half out of it in a different state..i dont want to be around anyone at all right now..didnt bother talking to yvonne yesterday although she was stressed out doing something else i just kinda came in and disappeared until i fell asleep..and shes going home today..might be back friday but if i end up going home this weekend ill be leaving friday..after this week i guess we really wont be seeing each other again because ill be packing and she is going out of town for christmas..no idea when she leaves for that but im guess it will be soon enough..guess ill ahve to wrap her gift and give it to her or leave it for her..for half a second last night i was proud of myself because both of my arms hurt..and the second after that i was completely bothered that i even thought that in the first place..of all the things i pick to be proud of it was that..yea and im supposed to be graduating iwth a social work degree...i think they may take it back because ill mess everything up..im just sad and feeling alone