christmas rant..religious ramble

....now i remember what i was thinking about today whiel i wasnt working...its decemeber and once i got over the anxious bits of everything and got bored enough to read the news it back to the same old stuff..someone is upset because there playing christmas music or showing a christmas movie and its against there religion..someone is suing some company for not stocking christmas villagers and they dont think its fair..what the heck..no im not incredilby religious but i think the arguments are starting to get really stupid and really repetative..believe what you want but stop foricing other ppl to conform because your religion is left out..who cares really..it just bothers me that ppl will waste time and money and sue over something as simple as christmas decorations when there are a million other problems in the world..what ever happened to freedom of speech and religion and all the stuff we are stuck in a war to keep..still think the war was a dumb choice but whatever..its just crazy how everyone can argue over who has the right to do this or that and ive always learned you ha ve the right to do what you want as long as you arent hurting anyone else in the process..do what you like but dont force your ideas on anyone else..everything is turning into a we cant do this because it will upset someone argument..well if it upsets them tell them not to come?! duh...christmas iss christmas so leave it alone..who really cares about where you can and cant sing christmas carols or why the nativity scene may be ok for one religion and not ok for another so its to bad for the ppl who really want to see it or something..its not fair at all and if ppl keep arguing over it then all the great generations after the current ones wont know any of it..by then religoins may be wiped out because no one would agree on where the seperations really were and everyone just argued over which is better...find something real to fight about like child abuse or poverty or the war...but still its not fair for me to say who is right and who isnt...its not my issue and im not the one fighting over it...its not important to me but its important to who ever is dealing iwth it...so..i dont have a problem with religion in general..i just prefer to stay away from it and i dont pick one or the other..and because of mommy bothering me about it i st ill lie and say i go to church ..when i think its been about 2 years since ive been to church..maybe once or twice in a two year span..but might be longer since i dont really remember..i still lived on campus..and sometimes i do think about why it is i dont care much for religion and havent picked one to stick with..easiest answer is i dont think it will help and i dont want to be bothered having something else to worry about..next answer is i dont like being pushed to believe something i cant see...and in all the time ive picked up things about different religions im really not sure the church route is the way for me..its just not..and maybe it worked when i was a kid since i know ive been baptised at least once..but church and being told to just agree with what was said didnt do anything for me..not that ive really considered any other religion and i guess there are way to many to just randomly pick one..i was watching a cartoon..avatar because its really the coolest cartoon ive ever seen and it was talking about chakras tonight..and i know ive heard about them before ..not a lot but somehow i have heard about them...duh there pressure points..watched xena long enough to know about pressure points but i would never try to go and press one..henry knows one i think..or else its just the pinching a nerve thing that you can do on someones neck that seriously makes you cry it hurts so much..wayne does it to and yea its all in fun but darnit it hurts..and the way they were talked about made a lot of sense to me..also got a laugh out of me because i would prolly crash and burn on the first one which is blocked by fear..one is blocked by guilt, and the other ones can be blocked too but ive forgotten how..prolly to busy being stuck on how simple it is to block something out you dont like..but back on track here since its past my self imposed bed time..when i looked up more info on it wiccan and pagan religions came up..confused the heck out of me because i really wasnt associating it with those two things..i was way in the other direction more towards like native american traditions that i already kinda liked ..and it may sitll apply but finding that out would take a lot of work im not really interested in right now..i know some about wiccan and pagan stuff ..not a lot and most of it just things ive read in passing..but then again im the person who completely enjoys reading about magic and whatnot..it wouldnt be that out of place i guess...still i do want to find out more about the chakras..and the other part of it is aruas..i would pay to find out what color my aura really was..like serious why its whatever color it happens to be..i wonder if there are a lot of people who can see them..i wonder if it can be taught..i wonder if its a whole body type deal and you are completely one color from head to toe or is it just certain areas that show different colors..so what to do..sorry im not going to go home and tell mommy ive decided to take up the wiccan principles..that would be right up there with telling mommy to drop dead and leave me alone on the things i would die before i do them list..ill just find some books on it..and see how it really goes without committing to anything ..besides its good to know stuff abbout different religions anyway..considering i thought about becoming a catholic just to give confession..and i still want to do it but i dont think i ever would..i dont tell my doc anything i dont think im gonna go and spill my guts to a priest i dont know so i can be told ill burn in hell or something..i already think it i dont need it to be confirmed by anyone..maybe im just being stupid and have no idea what im talking about..college made me dumb..i should have skipped it