wow

i actually did everything i had planned for today going out wise..i went to bath and body works and linens and things..picked up a few things for the new place i dont have yet..went to the movies and saw flushed away..it was ok and funny but not one ill buy when it comes out..picked up dinner and now im home again and tired ..it was nice just getting out..its nice being more comfortable driving..im not sure about the parking but everything else was fine..nice getting out and not being stuck in the house..its like ok you have a car so how about using it!! tomorrow i just need to go and get gas and thats about all i need to do..dont want to go shopping or anything because i really dont need to spend anymore money..so gas is all and i can do that early in the morning..gotta do some work on my reflection ..and im glad i got it started at least..its almost 10 pages but i think ill have to cut a lot of it out..and im not even finished yet..ugh..sometimes its annoying how much i can write..but ill work on that..its not even a big deal if i dont let janet read it as long as i let someone read it before i turn it in..i think ill still give her a copy though if she wants one...its n ice lounging around wearing shorts without worying about it..dusti is the only other one here with me and im sure she doesnt care what i wear..tshirts and shorts..guess i have to take the oppurtunities i get cas it wont last..quinn emailed me and let me know shes living in asheville now and that she needs a roommate and for a little while i did consider it..im still considering it but i dont think i want another roommate..i just want to live by myself and figure out if i can...might change but for now i just want to be by myself..it was nice offer though..no idea why anyone would want to live with me but oh well...i think ill just chill out for the rest of the day..no stress or anything..give myself a break or try to at least..i know im still a not incredibly happy but im not incredibly sad either just somewhere near the middle of both..so give myself a break..easier said than done but maybe it helps im feeling so tired