i knew itt..i knew i couldnt count on her to give me back the money i let her borrow..i dont have all the money for bills and iwas counting on her saying she would give it b ack to me for dec and jan bills..after all of it and e verything she swore she would do..none of it will happen..and im stuck without all the money ill need for bills and no real way of getting it unless i want to keep going back and forth home to babysit and even thats not completely certain..yea ill be able to do it over thanksgiving but the weekends after that what will happen?! stupid stupid stupid me...it sucks so much..and she says dont worry..she owes me money and then she needs money for henrys school junk and i just want to say forget about it because i know henry will get his first and ill be left waiting ...so once again im left stuck with no clear way out...trying hard not to cut..trying hard not to cry either..all of it is stupid