today

today is one of those days when im juts watching the day go by without doing anything..everytime i look at the clock another hour is gone and im not exactly sure what ive done..time continues to move even if i dont want it too..im not sure what to do with myself..ive randomly listened to music most of the morning juts to have something going on in the background..tried to watch tv and got bored in less than 20 mins..nothing i want to sit still and look at at .. i look at my books and dont want to read any of them..laying down and sleeping is just looking better and better..nervous energy coming from somewhere and theres just not an outlet right now..i dont want to do anything but i want to move..doesnt make sense..i did put the clothes away yet again..hung them all up and got them off the floor...gota do laundry early tomorrow morning..maybe ill stop binging soon..maybe maybe maybe.. maybe i wont give in and s/i or purge or take that valium ive been looking at all week...everyhting is a maybe still