not sleeping yet

im so tired right this minute and i am going to bed when im done with this..i was trying to wait until it was 10 so it wouldnt seem like i was going to bed really early...falling asleep at 7 just isnt cool at all..more so since i slept from 7pm to 6am and only woke up once...but 10 is a good time for me to go to bed for whatever reason..and i can fit in all the shows i really like too...i was looking at how many blogs i have on here and there are a lot of them..i think ill have to start a new one soon just because im starting to get paranoid and worrying that if my blog gets to long ill start losing some of my old posts and i dont want that..ill just wait until i get to 500 even and then start a new one..the way ive been writing lately it wont take long at all to get the rest of the way to 500..i wonder why i have been writing so much ..i dont even think i write about anything new..always the same old confusing stuff..i should be tired of writing about it constantly..i really should be but i guess im not if i keep writing about all of it again and again and still not making any sense of anything..maybe im just weird like that...i did kinda clean up my room again..and actually put all the stuff i keep pulling down away..didnt feel like doing the kitchen again.so thats still the half mess it usually is..maybe tomorrow ill feel better and finish cleaning it up..trying to think of what im going to be doing this weekend..yvonne is going back home again and ill be either by myself or i can go home and see about babysitting..dont know which ill be doing yet..most likely ill stay here..but being by myself and really turning into not a good thing at all..as much as i hate to admit it i prolly really dont need to stay by myself this weekend..but with granny home now i dont want to get stuck taking care of her either..not if ill be home for thanksgiving and i already know i cant get out of that..but this weekend i can get out of..maybe i just need to find something to do...