not interesting

im tired..sleepy tired or sad tire i dont really know so ill just stick with being tired..uncle bernard came and got my car working last night..something is up with the battery and im seriously thinking of getting jumper cable thingies just to have since i really dont know whats making it screw up so bad..waiting for it to get a little bit lighter outside or the sum comes up at least before i head back to greenville...main thought here being my car will start so i can fo back to school..it just wasnt enough i have to keep worrying it will just turn off on me now i have to worry if it will even start..im gonna become a pro at jumping my car literally.. and its not that im unappreciative or anything because i know it was a lot of money getting the thing to work in the first place but i wish it would it stayed the way it was supposed to and i would have my other car and not this one..i want a new car..and i really dont even want to think about the one i hve now breaking down completely in the middle of nowhere when i have to move..i could seriously write a book on how to worry..but thats nothing new..

thinking about the week and 2 days i have left in field really does make me nervous and ive tried hard not to think about it much lately..no point in just getting nervous and scared and cant do anything about it..but i was bored last night sitting in the car and started looking at the calendar..the semester is over soon..field is over really soon an i still have to graduate...nope i really still findd no happiness what so e ver in thinking about graduation..instead i tell myself again an again not to go and end up doing something stupid...like tripping on stage..that would suck..no one will even show up except mommy i guess..henry said he wasnt coming and nia might be working or something..everyone is busy..me being the center of attention for long is almost unheard off..but that coul change i guess..i dont know..

still put off doing my paper but ive started it which is a good thing maybe...dont really want to finish it though..i dont want to look at it anymore but its due tomorrow and so it has to be done..class is going to be really really long tomorrow..most likley staying the whole 2 hours or more..then im not sure what im going to be doing with my time for the rest of the day...working again on tuesday but thats nothing incredibly interesting..im an incredibly boring person it seems...watching tv or being online isnt that much fun anymroe..maybe ill find something new to do or juts hangout on campus at the library since i havent really been there all semester..check out a book or something.. but i better get going..almost 7:30 and i really want to be gone by 9 if not earlier