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how utterly depressing it is that im not doing anything anymore but looking at the clock watching the minutes drag by so i can go to bed..did read for a while..talked to mommy and found out riley and harris are going to new york this weekend and the bahamas for new years..i knew about the bahamas already but i didnt know about new york..given if i was asked to go i wouldnt say no considering i never do anything worth thinking about over the weekend..but i wasnt asked so i dont know..that might change but im not expecting it too...and theres nothing on tv i want to look at..yvonnes not home..i want to go to bed..but im not sleepy at all..and theres nothing to take to help me sleep..so im just waiting until i start to get tired..not like im doing anything at all to stay awake for but im guessing ill read ..funny how time seems to really slow down when i want it to go as fsat as possible.. i could just go to bed now but it wouldnt work..and since ive been not writing for about an hour now guess im done