hmmm

maybe i just dont know where to direct my anger and so i ignore it or make it go away..i dont like thinking im mad about something and having no where for it to go..im not really sure i would ever tell anyone i was mad at them..ok once when i told my teachers that..but still even that took a lot of pulling on their part..feeling a bit dejected about everything..considering going home this weekend just so im not here and by myself again..at least if i go home for saturday ill end up with harris and riley..and dancing in there kitchen with them is a lot more fun than hiding in bed all weekend...we danced in there mom and dads room the last time i was theree because i was giving them baths in the big bathroom and we were listening to the oliver and company music..ended up dancing like a million times with them and it was a lot of fun..ill miss them if i have to move..i wont be able to visit as much..well not like i really visit now anyway..hmm i write to much..maybe ill spend the next two weeks seriosuly thinking about the whole acceptence thing and get a little bit farther than just thinking its stupid...