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painting didnt help this time..writing isnt helping either really..neither of my paintings make sensse but the first one i did is kinda interesting and i really do want to take it therapy just because i dont know what else to do with it..not like im gonna hang it up on my wall..right now i just keep looking at it wondering what in the heck i was thinking..but i kindof like it too..but umm interpreting paintings just isnt my thing..i pulled out all of my smaller ones and its really weird looking at then and having no idea what i painted them for...just going on color would prolly explain quite a bit of them since i really have a thing for black, red and gray..lots of abstract stuff..mainly cause my drawing skills are nonexistent..but even looking back through them and not understanding them doesnt make me want to throw them away...a lot of what i write or paint or osmething i always start off doing itand then wanting to just throw it away or something becuase i think i wont like it or i wont be able to explain it..and sitting and looking at them waiting for an explaination to jump out doesnt work either...maybe letting someone else look at them would make it easier to explain some of them since i did them i should be able to explain them but i cant..now i think you know 50 years from now someone i dont know will look at something ive painted and come up with this whole story of why it was done and what i was feeling at the time and everything we do in art and english classes now..and i really dont know how people come up with some explainations for paintings and whatnot..its just so farfetched and off the wall..but i guess some of my paintings are pretty obvious too..i think im just going to clean up my paint junk so dusti doesnt think there new toys for her and go to bed