scared

i finally finished my process recording today..this morning and janet corrected it and made comments on it..so thats all done..one down one to go!

i also finally gave in and called about the job with the aspergers kids...it looks like i be offered the job..theres technically 5 openings..but i think ill go for being the counselor vs the assistant program director..more fun that way..and its a 4 days on, 3 days off deal which means if i get it i would have to look for an apartment down there...i would have to move and then dusti would be able to come with me..its completely scary..going from not knowing what i want to do..to almost being offered a job in asheville no less..i can barely get around graduating and now i have to add in a job and moving and dusti and all this other stuff..and some of that is why i wanted to kinda stay where i was..less to worry about..less to have to deal with..if i go to asheville..id end up living in sc..the camp is walking distance to the sc state line..the distance between camp and asheville is just as long as camp to greenville sc..henrys college is also about the same distance..the choices for living arrangements is just going to take a lot of time and patience..and figuring out money and all that good stuff...i talked to money about it and she didnt tell me i couldnt do it but i dont think she could have...but i told her just so she would kinda know and i told her i might be moving to asheville...and of course if i did i would get a 1bedroom..because i dont think i want another roommate after yvonne...it would be to weird and i should find out if i can even manage living on my own...or better yet if i can keep myself alive being on my own..temptation is horrible...