dont know

since i got a day off from work because of the storm im just hanging around not doing much of anything...yvonne went home so i have the house to myself for like all weekend..not that i have anything at all to do or anywhere to go but the quietness is creepy after a while...there isnt any flooding at all where im at so im guessing i got off easy complared to some places..hopefully it will go down soon and not cause to much damage...something is bothering me a lot..underlying sadness i cant get to but its not going anywhere either because ive noticed it for a while...guess its nothing to worry about maybe for now..somehow i learned that valium is a muscle relaxer and why i bothered remembering i dont know..prolly picked it up in the hospital ..but viacodin makes you not care..those were nice feelings over the summer all the two times i took some..my head is all over the place right now..i watched underworld a little while ago and so vampires are completely taking over my head..when i was younger i was positive vampires existed and that i could be one if i really really wished for it...well it never happened but back then i wanted to be one because nothing could kill them..the whole drinking blood thing wouldnt work out but otherwise there were perfect to me..i still really like them and although i know now i cant be one its entertaining to think about..i like things that dont count as real to most ppl counting as normal..being a faerie would have been my second choice..flying would be great..being able to disappear and not be hurt are kinda guidelines for picking out things i want to be..things that have no chance at all of ever happening but nice to think about...