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i want to wear the dress yvonne let me try on..the closer it gets to my birthday the more i want to wear it and go out..wiht a jacket of course but i want to wear it so much i want to cry..i dont have any reason to wear it and i dont know why i want to wear it so so much but i do..its depressing knowing ill never be able to wear any nice dress or anything because of what ive done...i want to be normal and im not..i dont understand..i dont understand why im so s cared..and why i dont know how to let it go..i dont understand why it has to hurt so much when its something ive brought on myself..its my fault and i dont get any of it..its not fair