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no shame
no guilt

not this time....it doesnt hurt as much as it should...calming down..just kinda want to sleep for a while because im tired..to early for bed so im watching zoolander because itwill take my mind off of things for a while..my head just got away from me for a while after i finished watching a show and it was hard to control my head when i just kept thinking about how im never going to be counted as normal..i have some idea of what normal is and im just never gonna manage to get there it seems..i dont know