Friday, April 25, 2014

im feeling very unsure of myself right now

i dont know how im feeling right now.....i guess i prolly am a bit on edge with the storm and everything..and then not feeling good..and i guess im starting to worry a bit about tomorrow and there being extra people in the house and everything...i think i am more than a bit on edge...because of the stupid weather i wont get to see sarah tonight..stupid stupid weather...

one of my jobs that i interviewed for did call me today..but i didnt get the position....i did get referred to the richmond part of the agency though...so im not sure how i feel...i of course thanked him for referring me along and letting them now i was a good candidate...but still it makes me sad..and i guess all the waiting and worrying and things are beginning to wear on me..and im trying to stay positive about things..but every day doubt slips in a bit more..and i wonder what in the world i am good for...what i did to get back in this situation...and it juts feels like everything is closing in on me and i cant breathe...i cant think..i want to lay down and forget the world exists..im not good enough...for anything..maybe that is all that i need to remember....

im tired and i feel like crying and i want sarah and i dont know...just a mess right now

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