Tuesday, April 01, 2014

angry....so so angry

so ive been told that my check will be getting held back..next week....i want to scream bloody murder..curse and rant and rave and just hit something....i dont like being told that i need to come in so things can be discussed..if im fired juts fire me..but no i get to wait until tomorrow to find out what will be happening i guess...or what is already happened...either way..im already missing one pay check...but now im going to have another possibly held...what in the hell do they (on that side of the office) think i am going to do..where im going to live...

because yes this makes me want to turn in my work all the more .... freekin freekin gosh i want to curse and yell at someone.... i need to go home...i really need to go home...

because everything will be once again screwed all up...may end up having to tell sarah i cant go to vabeach with her..i dont know yet...i cant think right now...i really cant ...

stupid appointment/exam from earlier hasnt helped anything at all...im sick of life right now..and if i have to borrow money from mommy i may as well just go ahead and kill myself and get it over and done with...the urge to do awful things are filling up my head right now....




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