feeling...well feeling a bit to much

im super tired and slightly drugged so im hoping that this will make sense. .. ive had mommmy hounding me for most of thedaay for one reason or another and you know something random..im completely sad that they have once again taken away teh chili and cheese burrito that i like from taco bell...crazy i know..but i like it and they keep taking it away and yeah... but im feeling down..and sort of wanting to drink which is a huge clue that i am trying to drown out some issue..its like going down the list of addictive behaviors and picking the next one on the list ..seriously ..i dont need another thing to have consume me...ill take the dang depressino on its own ..at least that i know will keep me from doing anything stupid ...drinking just to numb out will not be a good idea...so yeah..im a little freaked out though because of the recent breakins over here and im in the basement and so im a little bit freaked out but i am in the basement and its not like i can drag my stuff somewhere else..there is no where else for it to go...but ive locked the door back again ..so that it cant be opened from the outside..and that helps me feel a little safer but im still nervous aobut it ...and a little bit scared.  did i say that already?  hmmm i talked to sarah today and she is sad and upset and i dont know how to make it better...i will keep being there though.  taji has been clingly..and its only at random times and i know she is eating but i rub her and i cant tell shes eaten at all...i need to get them to the vet .. dang it i keep falling asleep and i kinda kinda gotta pee .. haha i gotta pea .. i should listen to the song again.  it makes me laugh..and since i am at risk of seeming like ive completely lost my mind..i think i should go to sleep.. i took my meds tonight. yay. i took them on time even...and now im falling asleep..i need to do laundry..maybe ill do that at some point this week..or sunday maybe..maybe the days will stop running toggether...yeah sleep.  i think ill write tormorrow. yep