i know im looking for an excuse to not face my problems..im trying not to let my mood effect everything else going on around me ..but really all i can seem to do is worry and worry leads to panic and panic leads to tears and tears can led to one or two things ..sleep or pain....i know that i juts want a drink right now to numb out..but i juts took meds and hopefully will fall asleep soon..im tired of today...im tired of trying ..im tired of being a failure ...im not sure about tomorrow at all..i dont want to go to the wedding..but i cant just skip it..i dont want to deal with a lot of ppl right now...who knows maybe i will even feel like eating tomorrow...i made tuna tonight...and by the time i was done i didnt want it anymore...i was starving..i ate at like 8 this morning...and just a couple sprites during the day..tuna was supposed to be dinner but now i dont want it anymore...or at least not tonighit..