thinking in circles

im thinking myself to death...i really am...  i know i cant budget to save my life..i really cant..and im frustrated because i of course dont have enough money to do things with.  I will be able to send mommy what i am supposed to send her..and get groceries to cook with and yea i need tramaine to buy food because for the past couple weeks it has been me...and maybe im just annoyed at that because i am so worried about food.  i will make a couple things on saturday..and because of the fridge size it wont be as much as i was planning to make..but will see...im just sitting here thinking about money and bills and trying to make everything fit..and still trying so hard to hang on to my computer without having to sell it..and it makes me upset still..that this is what i am up against...im worrying about going to nias and the cruise because i just want to be able to get away and it feels like every other day i am just faced to accept that i cant do a single thing...and that makes me so upset...i dont know..im trying to be fair and stuff..but things are making me angry..and  i dont understand why..and maybe i need to go back to sleep...but im hungry..and yeah...sleep