im annoyed and frustrated

someone has been telling mommy something ..and i can guess who it was ..but i dont know why...and it is frustrating and confusing to me and makes me feel as if i just need to not say anything at all about anything i am doing or not doing...and once again i am being told what i should and shouldnt be doing..that i shouldnt be giving all of my time to sarah...and its like geez i see sarah twice a week..im not living with her..im not freaking taking care of her..who told her any of this ?? and the only real conclusion i can figure out that is at the root of this sudden issue .. is that yvonne said some thing to nia and nia said something to mommy..and what was it?  that she didnt sleep in the bed with me?  that i wanted to hang out with sarah? im always doing something for everyone else..always...and the one time i find someone that i like being around and who keeps me from being lonely..and now everyone wants to give me their opinion on what i need not to do...im angry and hurt...i really am...because there is one bright spot in my life right now and everyone seems to be trying their hardest to crush it..and i dont understand why...no one asks what she does for me? all anyone else can see is the wheelchair and the extra help needed and that is not fair...suddenly it is an issue...and it is everyone else that is making it an issue...sarah is very independent...i am not stepping in and doing every single thing for her...thats not the way this is..thats not the way the relationship is...now there is a problem because im not spending time with anyone else....who in the heck do i have to spend time with ?  curvon im not seeing a lot because i am living in a freaking hotel...not because im only paying attention to sarah....because im working and if im not working im sleep and my couple days of being with sarah shouldnt be an issue...no one in my family knows any freaking thing about me....ill go back into my own little hole and go back to being alone and then wait for everyone to once again tell me that i need to be doing more..getting out more...but i guess i cant win either way....maybe i will just be alone..and that is all there is for me because im ruining everything for everyone else it seems...