i made it through my first day...and well im going back tomorrow.. haha... but im not sure what i think about today...i mean it wasnt super stressful..just a lot of getting information and getting to know the group i was with..and being reminded that i suck at remembering names..essh...and i know it is going to take time and things to get used to them...but just not knowing all the rules and guidelines makes me feel really not confident...and i dont like that...and again i know with time it will get a bit better.but right now it is a little bit nerve wrecking...because there are so many kids and they break all the rules and so its like having to find the line between real breaking the rule and what is normal behavior for them..and im using 'normal' very very lightly here...but anyhoo...
its so interesting to once again see how the kids divide themselves up though..and how they are all dating the boys..major ridiculousness ... but trying not to say to much about it...but just another day of working with teenagers .... and its really funny to see just how stupid they think i am with being new and stuff...really funny...but i have done this before...i may not be saying much..but im not stupid either...and so yes..my group today was a bunch of manipulating little minions..but i can see it..and it is really funny how many of them are like .. i feel aggressive and homicidal and what not...you can tell they have been in therapy and in residential for a good while...
i had the correct clothes at least...although i felt really uncomfortable because mommy bought them and so they actually fit..and i prefer my clothes slightly big...and so having them actually fit annoys me...but until i can buy something else im stuck with them..better yet ..im gonna have to figure out a way to do a load of laundry..since i only have the one outfit..and im trying my hardest to keep them clean and neat...but after friday..ill need to wash them..ok well after sunday..
my leg was really bothering me today...itching and hurting and right now its just throbbing a lot and hurting...my entire leg hurts...and it could be because ive just been up and moving all day...but also i think wearing jeans against the burns are just aggravating them even more...and there is nothing i can do about that right now...so ill have to deal ... but am just hurting a lot tonight..physically ..
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