i am feeling really anxious right now...my thoughts are going to fast and i have been thinking and worrying and freaking out and stressed and scared and all of it within the past like 10 mins...im trying to make the right choice ..and still manage and im not sure what the right choice is..and i know that i am thinking and freaking out just because it is a new idea and im scared and i dont really care to much about being in the hotel ..but right now ..i dont have the choice...if i want to leave here and i dont and im freaking myself out..and the more i try not to think about it the more i am so worried and scared....

ugh i cant thinkk. i cant . i feel like im going crazy. my head has been off today...but i dont know how to say how it has been off ...i dont know