Today I am very sad.

I am feeling very sad today.   Dr. Maya Angelou died today and it feels as if a family member has died.  I keep seeing the posts/news stories/quotes/etc..and it is hard.  I feel like crying and I dont understand why.  I read her books, I have read her poems, I followed her story, she was inspiring just because of who she was.  She lived her life, and her past was her stepping stones to something better.  She made it, she inspired others, she lived and loved and cared ..and now she is gone and it hurts.  It really hurts.  This is a women that I have never met, in the world of billions of people, who am i to her?? Yet hearing that she has died stopped me completely.  I didnt want to believe it, but it is true.  I have to believe it.  I cant make her come back just for my benefit.  How is it possible to really miss someone who I have physically never met, never been around, never talked too?  No I do not understand it at all. The sadness is overwhelming.  The need to think and process is overwhelming.  I never think that the people I am drawn to will ever die or go away and so when it happens, it is just that much harder to deal with.  How can I possibly explain that someone I do not know has died and the ripple effect has me completely thrown off balance.