feeling miserable

i keep telling myself to get off of fb for today..that all the posts about good mothers and loving mothers and all of that is doing nothing but making me feel more upset and miserable..and ive spent most of the morning i guess just trying not to cry...i called mommy this morning and did what i was supposed to do ..but i cant escape the numerous posts popping up all over facebook..and i hate it..and i wish i had a mother that did love me or want me..and didnt just beat the hell out of me and then swear that she doesnt remember anything..oh well for me...jealously, anger, all of it...is in my head today..and im just feeling tired and cant seem to get to sleep