would it really be that easy if i just stopped fighting all of it so hard? guess that would be where the acceptence thing comes in..who told me that accepting it doesnt make it right it just does something else that i cant remember...deal with it and let it go..stop trying to change stuff or make it better when it doesnt make sense..stop being someone you arent..hmm i dont think accepting what i do makes it ok..i think i wanted it to be ok but its sitll not..accept every stupid measly thought and action and situation no matter how small..and then i think the world might just end for the heck of it...thinking about it like that makes it seem like this huge thing that really is overwhelming.. and scary

The Serenity Prayer
	God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.