remember..then forget

my little picture thingy did make me laugh when i saw it actually show up..when i put it up earlier it was only in the profile and now its actually on the blog page..its cute though and i like it..

its barely past 9:30 and ive wanted to go to bed since 8..i was trying to wait up for yvonne but thats not gonna happen it seems...i got the extension on my project..i guess ill finish it next week and save myself the trouble of stressing more about it...class will be short tomorrow so that will be good..other stuff to do and errands to run.. ate dinner and half purged..feeling light headed and sore still..played games..did a little cleaning but not much..will hunt down quaters to do some laundry tomorrow..did i never mention that yvonne got me a hello kitty blanket..its pink and black and siilky smooth :) very cool and its on my bed with about a million other things but when i get my bed cleaned off ill fix it more...my attention is all over the place..maybe cause im so tired..but while im thinking about it i should prolly go and take my vitamins that i forgot or didnt take cas im never sure when im going to b'p..so since im going to bed ill take them now..maybe i need to make a list of things to do this week so it wont seem so overwhleming..or maybe i can juts stay in bed for a week and not care..or maybe i dont know..im being stupid...

so i had veggie corn dogs with bbq sauce and pickeles for dinner..as i was wandering around trying to decide if i wanted to throw up or not i thought about how weird a combo that was to just stick together and my second thought was..great im pregnant..and after i laughed about it i started thinking abut what mommy would do to me if i did end up pregnant..she wouldnt have to kill me cas i would do that myself but i dont really know if i would tell her or not..not that it matters i guess since she swore up and down that i was sleeping with everyone while i was in middle school and then she thought i was pregnant for other reasons..im not the smartest person in the world but im pretty sure you cant be pregnant for like 3 years..why i thought of that now i dont know..kinda hard being called a slut when your like 11..had to be 6th and 7th grade maybe 8th..i dont remember..i know i wasnt in high school yet though..not that it matters.some random half a memory..maybe because i take offense to be asked who im dating when its incredibly obvious i dont date..and because i dont talk about dating or anything its like everyone just likes to assume i have a million different guys im sleeping with..not dating just sleeping with..problem with that being i cant stand being touched by anyone almost unless i know them and even thats not set in stone..clubs and kids being the exceptions there..although clubs could cause more trouble if im to drunk to care...its just weird being accused of something you dont understand and not able to explain yourself out of it..oh well not a big deal