Monday, October 30, 2006

wondering

would i be willing to move? if i got a job and the choice was to move would i do it? i dont know...there are some thing holding me in greenville and it wouldnt be fair to just leave yvonne without a roommate all of a sudden..i got an email today from linda about a program thats being done from jan to may..working with kids with aspergers..i dont know all the details yet but i think i would at least like more info on it..i would rather not stay in the cabins but we will see..and since i wanted to go back to camp anyway this kinda does work out..and after camp ends in aug i can go from there and figure out what i want to do..and i most likely i wouldnt make any moving plans until aug depending on where i was going to be working at..but i just dont know..i want to get a job but i loved being in ashville, i like camp life because it makes things go back to being incredibly basic..but this wouldnt really be camp camp..and i would get to travel just a little bit...i guess that comes with keeping your options open..maybe im a slacker for not wanting to get a real job..but if im getting paid a salary then that is a real job isnt it?

i finally went and picked up my cap and gown today...theres really like 4 weeks left in my intern..and thiking about it makes me want to cry becausae i really dont know what im going to be doing for sure after that...i dont know where ill end up going or doing...better yet how am i going to keep myself alive?! and then what will i do about dusti..yvonne said she would keep her but i feel bad leaving her for so long..becuase i would leave in jan and be gone until may and then leave again in june...not good for dusti at all

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