the coolest thing ever

the coolest thing ever that could possibly happen with the least amount of thought so happened today!!! i was in clinic minding my own business watching the docs get the botox stuff ready for kids who needed them..and they have to mix them up and once i got used to staring at them mixing it i was positive i could do it and ive seen it done like a million or 5 times..and i pay attention everytime the docs mix it and im there..and today i was watching and bored and i asked if i could mix it and the doc said yes and of course he was doing a million thigns at once and i didnt really believe he would let me do it..but then he brought all the stuff to the table and told the resident to to mix one and for me to mix one..and for the resident to explain/teach me as like a teaching thing for the resident!! i mixed botox!!! it was so cool and i didnt poke myself or anything and i followed all of the directions and everything..but my supervisor got incredibly nervous lol and made the doc stop me although i was doing fine :) she told me i was never allowed to do it again either but it was so cool while i got to do it my one and only time so far..know that ive done it i dont think ill need to ask again :P i really just wanted to try it cas it looked incredibly neat and i just wanted to play with the long needle too..but i did it and for like 5 mins i had everyone watching me and it didnt bother me at all since i was so focused on doing it correctly..then i got back to the office and told cindy and lousie and would have told the others at the staff mtg but janet so told me not to do that...for some reason i didnt clue in to that not all docs would be comfortable with a student handling stuff..but i followed everything like i was supposed to and didnt mess anything up so it worked out..i really think thats like one of the coolest things ive ever gotten to do in my incredibly depressing short life.at the same time i told one of the head docs at the clinic and he didnt have a problem with it :) so not worried aall and it was still cool and its prolly horrible english to say cool so many times in one entry! ok enough about that...im half watching the little mermaid right now and thats really nice too..and i went to coldstone without getting ice cream..and that took ever ounce of strength i could drag up..coldstone is seriously my favoritest palce in the world but after everything i ate today and i just couldnt get ice cream..i wasnt hungry either but walking into coldstone made me forget that andi just wanted ice cream..and i was annoyed at myself for not giving in and just getting some..the longer i set in there watching yvonne eat her ice cream and other ppl coming in and getting ice cream i was positive i would crack and hate myself for it..i stared at the ice cream looking compeletly depressed im guessing and i just wanted someone to feel sorry for me really and buy me ice cream..but nope..i lasted untell the guy walked in yelling about fresh french vanilla ice cream..and then i told yvonne we had to go..and we left and it was ok..still faintly sad i didnt get ice cream but ill get over it...how sad is it that im completely going this indepth about freaking ice cream?!! who cares so much...but anyway then we went to the grocery store and my unusual obssession started..but i didnt buy junk food..maybe not being hungry helped..maybe not being able to waste a lot of money on food helped i dont know..not a lot seemed really interesting today.. i once again got yogurt that ill have to force myself to eat..if it kills me and it prolly will..yogurt is just ugh..but anyway..one more thing to just choke down and get it over with...i found this pills..which so count as diet pills but they do stop the hungry feelings for short amts of time...for now ive only taken up to two a day and the limit is 3 so im following the directions and what not..hmm anyway..not to ramble about nothing...the chef in the little mermaid is so violent its funny