thinking

am i undervalued? ive been thinking about that sense yvonne mentioned it the other day..i cant decide on it

i want to do something i just dont know what it is going to be..i want a new movie im getting a new movie on wed and im trying to talk myself out of ordering out because i wont do anything but b/p..its just looking really appealing right now..maybe i need to go clean up the kitchen until i stop thinking about what i want to eat..i have every intention of cleaning the kitchen though because its starting to annoy me..i just want to hurt right now not a lot but enough to get things back on an ok level.

i finally got to upgrade my phone yesterday because my phone now is just way to small and half broken thanks to dusti..im surprised i managed to keep it working for as long as i have..but by friday by new phone should be here..i cleaned my room this morning and that kept me a little busy for a while and then i just took a really long break with dusti because it is funny watching her attack her new toy..mostly she just napped next to me while i was reading..rent comes out tues and i cant get it until wed..ill have to remember something to talk about on wed but its not like my weeks are that exciting..my life would bore everyone..maybe ill color or look up new books online..ive been trying to remember to work on the identifying emotions part of the mindfulness stuff and its kinda hard and im still not good at catching most of them..like right now i feel sad but 5 mins ago i felt alone and 30mins before that i was nervous and before that bored and before that i dont remember but i go through what ever emotions i do have really fast..most are gone before i have the chance to even think about why its there..oh well. im dog sitting for the night since yvonne went home with allen i dont mind..not like i had plans on doing anything any way