another day

i cant decide if i should be mad at myself over my test grade or not..i got an 84 and that was without studying at all but i made a couple really stupid mistakes and thats because i didnt check my anwsers as well as i should have..ill do better next time...right now im doing really bad iwth all of my school work, i need to stop spending my days doing everything but work because now im not turning junk in and thats not good...so this weekend i really will finish my paper that is now late and read for bio so i dont screw up on my quiz once again stupid mistakes...and just overall do a bit better than this week...its just well i got caught up stressing about my interview that i couldnt deal with doing anything else and i go back and forth between being depressed and not being depressed and spending way to much time in bed not wanting to get up...i have a headache right now and just an overall crummy feeling since thanks to my boots my feet hurt so much..i dont think ill ever get used to wearing those now that i have them..there fun every once in a while but good grief my feet hate me! i got my new books today though and now ill have to be really careful about not wasting all of my time reading them but they are so good and i just want to waste the weekend reading...i went out with yvonne today again and i got a cinderella clock from her and a valentines care bear that is so cute but she told me i have to wait until after the 14 to get them from her! boo but still cool..she has gotten me a lot of little things the past couple days and it just makes me wonder how i ever manage to feel alone when i have a really wonderful roommate who does things for me without me asking...but today i find out that yvonne wants to help me find a boyfriend and i say help but it was more of her goal is to find me a boyfriend..and i told her she was living on another planet if she thinks that will happen..and she told me i was smart, attractive and funny and that we would have to find a guy would makes me feel like a princess since i tell her every other day im a princess without any real reason behind it...but still so now she has the idea that she is going to find me someone and we had the convo of you know accpeting yourself s you are and for half a sec i just wanted to stop and tell her exactly why i will never have a bf..and the moment passed and now im just like look if you want but it wont work..now that she has a bf, i do get on her about letting me plan her wedding and name her kids and it is a lot of fun for me..more so for me than her but now she says its only fair that if i get to plan her wedding she will get to plan mine and that time i did stop in the middle of the sidewalk and look at her like she had a third eye or something...good grief i told her i wasnt getting married and that i was going to be a nun and still she wants to plan my wedding..essh weird..but over all it has been a really really ok day...im just not feeling good and being cranky and really wanting to go back to bed right now since i dont have my test to worry about anymore..oh yea..surprise of the week, mommy is coming on sunday..i just keep thinking of how much of a screw up i am right now and i dont want to have to be told for a day but ill figure out someway to manage..i hope that doesnt involove at least me playing with a razor