freezing

if i get cold enough i wonder if ill freeze to death..prolly not but since im trying to go to sleep and cant ill write until im tired again...i dont know if ill go to the midnight movie or not..dirty dancing isnt a favorite movie of mine although i do like the end...maybe ill go just to go..ming is sleeping under my covers and warming up my side and dusti is sleeping near my legs completely stretched out on my towel i forgot to hang up..i kept moving around last night and i have no idea why dusti even keeps sleeping in my bed..good grief i drive myself up the wall moving around so much...today has been ok..still lots to think about though..one of this days i will so figure everything out but when i do that i wonder if ill still be me... so topic of today? hmm trust maybe or maybe i should leave it at acceptance but im thinking for some reason i have to get through trust first..im a step away from just making a list because i know i dont trust that many ppl completely but why do i trust the ones i do? everything turns into a why question but if im asking why then eventually ill get to the reasons behind it... i cant feel my fingers again i cant generate enough body heat to keep mysself warm..as long as i dont start shaking im ok but im getting there..i really should think about what i have to do over the weekend like homework and random cleaning...and i need to clean out my bag..good grief i cant find anything in there anymore...and now ive bored myself enough to go play a game