long day

no better, a little worse. still wanting to go away but i dont know..yvonne is worried and that my fault to for writing what i did in my other journal..maybe i did want her to worry but not that soon..she in turn wrote this whole long thing about why im around and eventually got around to telling me she needs me and i dont get that often..i dont ask for it either but this morning when i read what she wrote for the first time it was a huge surprise..some of that stuff i had forgotten and she said she is going to add more stuff to the list and i told her not to and she said she will anyway..im hoping she will forget about it. maybe ill print it out so ill have it just to have. i still cant really put whats going on in my head into words yet..im so mad and sad at the same time..no idea how they work so well together but for now they are and i think it will all just end up with me at the health center getting my leg looked at..still its starting to not hurt anymore and all i want to do is add more to them..well not burn again but i dont know about that either really