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now im sleepy...wasnt when i thought up the bright idea to write just for the purposes of making myself sleepy..surfing the net can be a bit boring at times...so i did end up going out tonight..almost got to the point of saying i didnt want to go and that would have made me mad because i had been looking forward to it all night...so taly and jeff were late but they got here and we went downtown in the rain..thankfully it wasnt thundering anymore or i really would have got around to changing my mind..but we went to a bar i had never been too..it was the over 21 place..jeff paid for me to get..jeff and tiffany and another guy in the group bought me drinks..i managed a small half sleepy buzz for a little while..the club was boring at first but it was fun watching the dancers..the over 21 club can get some weird older people in there..i think one guy was like 50 or something..but anyway..had shots and drinks and i was a little annoyed i ddint end up drunk but thats ok..tiffany and taly asked me to dance with them on the platform thingy that wasnt a real stage but it was kinda to the side in front of the dj booth..and i wasnt going to but i was bored so i went and ended up dancing with some girl for a couple hours..kinda glad no guy asked me to dance..wasnt really in a guy touching mood .. but everyone was having fun and i was in my own little world wondering if it was possible to get sober through sweating..it was so hot in the club good grief..but i noticed taly and tiffany and another girl yelling at some guys and i had no idea what was going on..but they yelled back and forth and i had to grab taly before it turned into a full out fight..the bouncers came over and talked to all of them and i found out that one of the guys had grabbed taly and she hit him and his friends got into it and then the girls with us who saw it got in it and since i was behind them i was still a little unsure about what happened but nervous all the same..all of a sudden there was like this wall of guys between us and everyone else..the bouncer said we would have to leave and this woould have been the first time ive been kicked out of a bar..and i didnt have anything to do with it but i wouldnt have stayed anyway..and the guy said taly and everyone with her would have to go..eventually it got worked out enough for everyone to stay because it was close to 2 in the morning anyway and the club was closing..but then jeff came and talys brother and angie and everyone is trying to figure out whats going on...jeff and talys brother had to be stopped from fighting..more than once..but still for the rest of the night we were like surrounded by guys and i know it was done to stop anything else from happening but still weird because it was making me feel incredibly trapped...and we kinda got seperated while everyone was trying to find who they came with..cops are all over the place downtown when clubs let out..still im glad it turned out ok but still not glad taly was grabbed by some guy..but then glad again that she stood up for herself and had jeff and her brother and her friends to back her up too..hmm other news..saw the tallest guy i have in a while..he made me feel so short and im not short by any means but i kept staring at him..talked to him once because i was taller than him for a little while while i was on the platform thing..took a bunch of pictures...ended up smelling like smoke and that was the grossest part of the night..met some new people i didnt know and saw old people i havent seen in a while...came home and drunk a bunch of water and ate rice krispy treats until i was almost sure i was going to be sick..and now im writing and thinking random stuff..listeninng to music and the rain outside.wondering who is going to love dusti when i leave for the summer..im the only one who understands her..my armband glows in the dark i think..im sleepy though and im rambling and i dont want to sleep