sunday

not sure this will be long at all..gave in and took something for my headache and im just hoping that it will put me to sleep for the night..im back in greenville and i came back with carmin and that was fun..and i hung out with henry and nia and one of her friends today..got a new cd that ive been listening to all night..and of course the song is just depressing but i still like it..not really sure why i have such a headache but its making me feel sick..the blister on the back of my foot just isnt getting better..i think it might be a little bit infected but im not sure but all the same i put meds on it and covered it back up and hopefully it wont feel so bad in the morning..all the walking on it lately with sneakers on just isnt helping it im sure..but i still say its to cold for flip flops..so sneakers it is painful or not...im trying hard not to be really mad at yvonne but i got home about 2 or 3 hours ago and everything is just a mess and most of the time it doesnt bother me so much because i leave my fair share of stuff all over the place..but today it just bothered me a lot and it upset me because i knew she was having company this weekend and i know shes doing her play this weekend so shes really busy but i just still think she should have straightened up a bit..if i ever ever have a boyfriend i really hope i dont change..i know when i see her tomorrow she will say sorry for leaving everything a mess but all the same i stll cleaned up..no point in just doing part of it and leaving the rest so i just did all the cleaning ive been putting off and got caught up i guess..now im tired and that may have had something to do with my headache too..i really hate that cleaning is so ingrained into who i am..as much as i hate doing it, i still do it without thinking..part of it is just me thinking i have to because if i dont ill get in trouble..part of it is just boredom..part of it is calming..and even all the time it takes for me to talk myself out of it..ill get around to doing it and as much as i hate to admit it im good at it..sometimes having everything in order just makes me feel like ive accomplished something..still i could swear at any moment mommy will show up and start yelling at me for forgetting to do something or how my room is because yes i cleaned the rest of the house but i didnt clean mine..everything is still on the floor because im just not feeling like cleaning right now anymore..my room always gets slacked off on because its not like anyone will be coming in here but me..i feel like im complaining alot right now and i dont want to..even though i was at home kinda i still had a fun weekend with riley and harris..i got to do a bunch of stuff and see laura..still the last part was benig around mommy and that just really can make the whole weekend suck..im going home agani in like 3 days..and not even knowing mommy wont be home doesnt make it any bettermedicated sleeps are the best..bedtime before all my words start running together