Sunday, April 23, 2006

sucky couple days

i keep forgetting that im supposed to be working on accepting compliments ie good stuff and so when i hear it im not thinking about it..and then like half a minute later i do remember and go back and say thanks..and even though i say it i dont really believe it..my first thought when i hear anything good is that they are liars and second thought is say thanks and forget it..you would think i was walking in front of a firing squad when all i have to do is say thanks..i think it would be easier to do almost anything else..ill take any other homework now

when did things begin to change? it didnt happen all at once so i guess it was one of those gradual things that i wouldnt have noticed if it hadnt been pointed out to me..i question a lot of stuff but not as much as i do now..i spend a heck of a lot of time figuring stuff out, if that could be a job i would be rich by now..i just like knowing the why behind stuff and with mommy i cant do that..so i just half question stuff about her and question the heck out of everything else..

dont feel like writing anymore...this b eing the third one ive started and stopped

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