angry is not the word

there is no word in the english dictionary that can fully get how mad i am..yes i am perfectly fine about a lot of things and i can let a lot of things go but i just flat out refuse to let it go when my grade hangs in the balance of the most idiotic teacher ive ever had..and thats saying something because the lady is a freakin social worker and a bad one so it seems..earlier in the semester she got mad becasue one of the girls in the class sent her an email asking her to slow down or make copies of her notes because no one can keep up with she says in class etc...so the next class she comes in and me being clueless as to what went on wonder why it looked like she was about to cry in front of the class..well she gave this whole speech that flat out called us stupid and that it was our fault if we werent keeping up wtih the readings and it wasnt her responsibilty to make sure we knew what she was talking about when it went with the chapters in the book..and it would have been fine and dandy if she had left out the stupid part..no i didnt do the readings..but i came to class..no one did the readings ..and for the rest of the class no one said anything..after class i found out about the email that went to the teacher and i had to agree with it..this is the second time ive had her as a teacher and yes she does talk really fast and its hard to keep up with what she says..she knew this already, we told her in research, we asked every class if she could slow down and say stuff over...and now its an issue..so the whole thing went to the director of the dept and they didnt do anything about it...after that i never wanted to go to class..i didnt have a reason to listen to anything she said..theres that whole you have to earn respect to get it and she just didnt have mine anymore..but i still did my work, i turned in my work and i still showed up for class..didnt listen or talk in class but then i dont talk in any of my classes so that was nothing new..today i find out that she will be giving grades on participation..and only on that..all the work i busted my butt to do wont count at all and that really really makes me mad..i dont talk in class and thats because i dont like talking much..i didnt talk in this class because i didnt like her..but its not fair to grade on participation when there is other work i already have grades for..and in the handout from the beginning of the semester participation is only supposed to be worth 10 points..not a complete grade and its not fair ..i can handle losing most of those 10 points if i have to but i know my grades and i know im sitting somewhere in the b range..which im perfectly fine with...anything lower than that just isnt right or fair..ive worked way to hard to get my grades up to run into this now..geez even yvonne said in not so many words that the teacher bordered really heavily on being disrespectful towards the class and yvonne was in my class for less than 10 mminutes..ive had the lady for two semesters and the first time i was in her class i got the feeling she didnt like me..nothing to complain about i did myy work and ended up with an a in the class..this semester i guess the feelings were mutual..it takes a heck of a lot to get on my bad side and me being who i am i let a heck of a lot of stuff go for various reasons but now the choice is seriously bordering on me failing or passing a class that i dont need to fail only because i didnt participate..that whole stand up for your rights thing comes to mind and even if i might be the most agreeable person i know with just about everything i can think of i guess the line has to be drawn somewhere..