finally at home again..its been a long long long day and im just feeling worn out. met with the new cl and her mom today and they are awesomely cool..all the kids are home schooled and so there mom is just so laid back and there dog is a big big biggggggggggggggg fluff ball! his name is coconut and hes white and has oodles of fur and hes raly nice and likes to be petted :) oh and the cl was nice from what i saw of her lol..but they are nice and i told my supervisor i would give it a try. so that was good.
later that day i was told one of my other cls lost hours yet again and so her case will have to be appealed yet again for the 3rd time in less than 6 months .. its so so so frustrating right now with all of that and im now up to 5 cls .. 4 adults and one baby..and so my wed, thursday and friday hours just keep changing ..and im back to working 5 days a week and still hovering on the line between full time and part time
car issues of the day...cant see about getting a car until all insurance stuff is taken care of and that can be a couple weeks...im not sure i can afford to pay for a rental for that long and am freaking out big time about it..but cant do anything about that either..mommy got a letter today about the taxes on my car and im not sure why it went to her but now i have to give her the money to cover that which you know is to be expected but its just coming up at a really really super bad time and thats $200 that im going to be out of for that..but now its just down to a whole bunch of waiting it seems ..and im trying to keep cool and calm..and just take it a day at a time..but it is so hard ..i keep seeing when i ran into the back of the other car..and i dont remember what i was doing that i couldnt stop completely in time..i swear i was paying attention but im not sure..you know i wasnt on the phone, i wasnt messing with the radio..what had my attention so very much before it all happened ..i just wish i could remember the before a bit more clearly..the actual moment i remember very well and driving is still really shaky/nervous a bit.but it was better today..not as paranoid..just realized that i need to drive..i cant work without my car, i cant do anything with out my car..so i cant not drive..i cant be to scared to drive..
pri training was alright tonight..i paired up with someone i knew and that made it easier..we laughed a lot through it..and i always forget that pri for this job isnt the same as with the other job i had..where as with this current one we are not allowed to do a full physical restraint..no putting anyone on the ground..so it was more of just blocking and biting and hair pulling and simple restraints..my other job you were put into a full restraint..from standing to on the ground..and that i could never deal with well..and its slightly funny cas the lady doing it was talking about you know not to do it if you were hurting and stuff and i was like well i was in an accident like 2 days ago..and she pretty much told me i didnt have to do the physical part..and i told her i was ok and would let her know if i started to hurt to much..and it was only a couple times that i had to stop and move back a bit because of hurting a bit..but i also think doing it and using a bit of muscle i guess worked out some of the soreness in my chest..im not hurting as much right this minute..actually feeling pretty ok right this minute..dont know what changed it..
went and saw race to witch mountain with my cl today and it was a pretty ok outing. wasnt feeling great while i was with her and had a huge headache during the movie..most likely made worse by not eating until today..and popcorn at a movie just isnt food..so felt pretty crummy but still went and showed up and did what i had to do i guess..her mom just didnt get it at all and i guess she just comes across as being really rather selfish about the whole thing..and i dont know how to describe it at all
wish i was sleeping better..but maybe tonight it will be ok...i cant sleep on my back and have to sleep on my side or stomach or else i just keep getting up and moving..and with being so sore in the chest area i havent been able to really get comfortable at all...but hopefully the soreness will be gone for good in a couple more days
guess thats been my day
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