silence and isolation

i am having a weekend where i am just isolating completely..i dont want to talk to anyone so im not..i dont want to be around anyone so again im not..i am trapped and slightly afraid due to bad dreams but still i am stuck here..just waiting..just thinking..wondering about everything and nothing ..i sit and watch the time go by wondering what i should be doing.wondering why i cant go out..wanting so much to be free of whatever it is that is currently holding me down..keeping me trapped..today im not feeling good...yesterday bad dreams had me terrified and confused..friday there were some family things going on that was frustrating me .. and i dont know..i dont think i like myself very much right now...i just want these days to be over and done with..because i am going down...cant even mamke myself go to anything outside of work and even that is pushing it most days..i dont want to work..i dont want to do anything but just lay down and forget that the rest of the world exiists .. and this is super depressing so il just stop now..head is hurting a lot