remembering...a positive thing i think

so ive done a lot of writing the past few days...i think i reached a new level of writing that i havent had in a while...a couple weeks ago i wrote two poems..very quick..very honest about how i was feeling at the time..it has been a long time since i have written poetry..and then this past weekend i wrote out my thoughts/feelings on the shooting that happened..and was able to express myself better that way..it was short..honest..and i got a lot of likes/praise i guess on it...and i wasnt looking for that at all..i just needed to express myself and get the thoughts out of my head...

but since i wrote that last one...i have been thinking a lot about how i write..and have been thinking that i am good at writing..i am very good at writing..and detailing..and all of that..most of the time i just kinda gloss over the fact you know..i dont expect anything in return for my writing..i really dont..but i am considering/remembering..that i wanted to write a book..well i wanted to write a few books..i did...a childrens book, and then a book of my poetry..something that i had completely lost interest in..forgotten about..until this weekend..and my interest is up again...my thoughts are going over the idea..wondering what to do about it..

it will involve a lot more thought though...and i do believe that with my book i will intertwine parts of my journal with the poems...because im sure there is a theme to them all..every last one of them...and it is just an interesting thought you know...something that could possibly happen..something that could make me feel proud of myself and my accomplishments...

again it is one of those questions about what do i want to do...and why i want to do it...

i have been told over and over that i write well..and it was something that i again chose to ignore and downplay a lot...i didnt consider it very important at all ... it was just something i did to empty my head...but i know i will need a good editor lol...but just thoughts to think over ...