it really is weird being able to think through so much ...really do miss the chaos but im guessing once im used to it then it will be much better to deal with..you know today i laughed and it actually felt like i meant it ..wow not even sure how to begin to explain that one..its just all feeling so .. oh i dont know
but i actually finished my work stuff and turned it in today..i think ill make it to bed tonight before 12!! gosh its been days since ive gone to bed before midnight..and then even better no waking up at 4 in the morning to finish paperwork!!! thats awesome :D
tomorrow is a new day..and it actually feels like that..its not something to be avoided
and wow if i start trying to become mary poppins please i beg you throw something at me!!
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I'm glad the meds are making a difference - and if you want to sing like Mary Poppins, it's ok with me, lol. Let me know if you can get the umbrella to lift you up in the wind - I never could! One good thing about the meds helping is that it makes it more possible for the therapy to help too. Sorry it was so hard last time - but the hard part is something you usually have to work through to get lasting progress. Sometimes you have to face the hurt to be able to move past it. But NO ONE will force you to do that any faster than you choose. You are in control of the process. If you're not ready, you don't have to talk about it. When you decide you're ready, then you know there are safe places and people who love you. Honestly, there are some things I have yet to talk about also - but other parts of therapy and my faith have helped me to deal with it enough that it isn't controlling/destroying me. It can be a long process - but it's great to have some Mary Poppins moments once in a while because you don't have to stay sad until you've worked through everything. It's ok to be happy while you're getting better! :) Good job on your paperwork! Love you.
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