its early..i want to go back to bed

i just feel the need to say that whoever invented alarm clocks should be hurt seriously..or taken to the middle of no where and just left good grief

so im gonna go out on a limb here and say im a little cranky at being up at 4 in the morning..slightly nervous about the day but i think i just want to get it over and done with now...gotta finish paperwork..my fault for not doing it sooner...and then rush back to get ready for the interview and get there on time and then go to t and then to work..im tired just thinking about it..actually it doesnt feel like i slept at all last night..i think i got up every hour to mess with something or other and then laid back down..which is something i never do and so it is frustrating..tonight im going to bed super early..maybe it will help?! i know i have to be patient and let the meds even out in my system but the not sleeping thing when im yawning like ive been up for days is just not ok

its interesting though..because i can feel the anxiety about the day trying to build...but it only goes so far and then it kinda starts to back off again..slightly weird and alarming ...

crap i just want to go to bed and not even mess with paperwork until tonight..but if i just keep putting it off then i dont get paid ..and not even thats helping me right now because its just screwing up my paycheck.. oh i dont know..i was doing so good too..essh