weekend

the weekend was ok..slightly boring..mommy was gone for a couple days kinda..and so it was quiet at home...and then i was babysitting both friday and saturday night and we had fun hanging out with the kids...played board games, watched movies at there house..the general goofing around that babysitting entails! but they were being exceptionally loving this past weekend..or maybe im just noticing it a bit more and accepting it..i dont know..but i had fun ..and then yesterday there were a few issues with mommy but trying not to think about it to much..ended up going up to nias and we went to the movies...was going to see up and couldnt because they only had the 3d version at that movie place and i dont like 3d movies at all..and want to see it just regularly ..so have to wait to see it ..and so we went and saw taking of pelham 123. and then i talked nia into watching the disney channel for a couple hours ..i did laundry at her place lol...and then we played little big planet..holy cow that is a fun game :) !! it was awesome..i made a little sock person and mine had blue hair and fairy wings and a magicians wand lol..i wanted the cape but nia had the cape so i picked the wings instead..and its like you get to race and go through all these different levels that different players can build and you can play online with other ppl..and seriously me and nia playing together didnt make it very far in the levels lol..she would leave me and then i would die because once you arent visible on the screen your lil character bites the dust..and so she left me, i left her, i set off bombs cas i didnt know what i was doing..and then once in a race she left me and i chased her down the ice and jumped on her sled lol..she thought i was going to die but instead i caught her and got on the sled lol..and of course this is the one game in the world where you can completely hit the other player! like i was creating my player and my sister kept slapping me and making me fall down..and then she showed me how to do it and we spent massive amounts of time chasing each other in the game just to hit each other ..specially if we were arguing about who cheated first

but this up coming weekend im gonna have to figure out something to do..some family thing going on that i have no intention of going too..so ill prolly just say i have to work or something and disappear a bit..

the car stuff is moving along but its not turning out so good really...the insurance that i have been waiting for so long to be canceled finally is..but they arent paying the full balance due..and so that leaves me with a balance i cant afford to pay..and not sure how that will play out with the finance company now because if i dont get reapproved for a loan for a car then i cant get one and ill be even more stuck :( so frustrating..the other better side would be that they just tack on the last of the balance to the new loan and ill just have to pay it off like that and ill be able to get a car...i hate all this

but its been a week on the meds..and its getting better i think..easier to feel ok with taking them now that they arent making me feel completely miserable..im able to think a little slower and not jump way ahead of myself and start worrying about everything but what i have to do.its still hard realizing that my thinking is moving slower and clearer..but im glad i can think and figure things out...with all that is going on i know that ill be staying in the area i am at now..since everything is being set up here..for a while longer..you know still looking for a job and hoping to move but the anxiety about doing it as fast as possible is wearing down..i can do it you know, i will do it but rushing and pushing myself to do it doesnt get me there any faster..so slowing down a little bit and being ok with it is a very good thing lol..

but im off to finish paperwork and get ready for work...fun times