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i guess ive officially started to study for the GRE...its funny cas before i mentioned it to linda i was dead set on not taking it and wanting to get out of it..but then as soon as she mentioned that you know there are schools where you dont need to take the GRE to apply..and its like duh how could i forget about that..but then once i was reminded of that and that option was there i suddenly wanted to take the GRE..my first pick for schools really is going back to ECU..and if i have to take the GRE in all of its stupidness then i will..and i found a couple of really interesting sites to use..one for learning more vocab..and one that has like bunches of practice tests and essays and all of that...and then there are a couple prep classes through the college that i can take online for 6 weeks each and its 90 a class and i dont think thats bad at all considering that online the preps and classes are like hundreds of dollars for only 3 or 4 days and stuff..and i think that by stretching it out over 3 months for me will keep the stress down...and i think ill plan to take it in aug..or september depending on when the july class will be over with..and then working in the vocab thing this morning..i realize i know a lot more words/definitions than i thought i did..but then im always playing scrabble and stuff online..and what not..so im not worried about the vocab part..its all the other parts lol!..

but i think i just need to focus on one thing at a time..because i say i want to go to grad school but then im looking for jobs randomly and not even applying and i need to quit doing that...if i apply to schools and dont get in then thats something else and ill go on from there..if i do apply and get in then well it looks like grad school..so i really do need to do one thing at a time..and be ok with it..instead of always worrying and wanting to do something different.