really mad

mad mad mad..the most illogical anger ever..its confusing..right now im ready to just pack up and leave and its over a reason that makes no sense really..i mean its not my house its mommys and so of course she will have final say on something like getting a pet..but being told no makes me so so so mad..and it shouldnt but it does and its frustrating..because at work today there was an abandoned kitten that is staying at one of my cls houses now..and it has to be bottle fed its so small and cries and i got to hold it and it climbed up my shirt..and i wanted it so much.i wanted it..i promised to never ask for anything ever again..begged and begged my sister to ask for me..and she told me mommy said no..that she was just getting mad cas i kept asking..i dont ask for anything and all i wanted was one little kitten and being told no was just unacceptable .. ok please ignore the craziness in this .. but this makes me upset enough to want to just leave..and go somewhere else..how is that?! almost nothing else gives me that same urge..but today..right now i dont care at all..because leaving means i can do what i want..and can get another kitten and no one can tell me no at all..and if they dont like it then no one can ever come to my house i wouldnt even care...and obviously acting now would not be a good idea at all ..but good grief

this is all ive asked for in forever and i guess its just upsetting me at being told no..i dont know