ive been back and forth trying to write this..wanting to write but not having anything to say..very sad and just want to go back to bed, i dont want to talk to anyone or be around anyone and i dont want to go to work or go babysit after work because that means being around someone and eventually having to talk and i dont want to talk at all..i want to be quiet and sit still and not think.and not cry and i dont know what i want to do..today is not friday, it cant be friday twice..thats stupid and i keep thinking it is..im sick of everything..but way to sad to even care..i keep oversleeping the past 3 days..and then i get up and all i want is to turn around and go right back to bed because thats easy and doesnt take any thinking at all..somewhere in there thoughts are getting to be very bad and i should care shouldnt i? i mean like try to stop it or something?