anxious...

my anxiety is getting the best of me today and im worrying about everything ..worrying why i havent gotten an email from the pastors wife.  i want her to email me. maybe im just wanting someone to connect with. i want to know that someone cares that i exist and that i am here.  everything that went on yesterday has me feeling so scared and feeling very exposed. and just unsure of myself right now...im really tired right now..like sitting down and not even doing anything makes me feel like i could just go to sleep..and i just want to say screw it to everything else..i didnt sleep good last night..and i really do just want to sleep for a long time right now..i do..have i mentioned how tired i am..but im tired and worn down and just out of sorts..