ugh

now is so not the time to figure out that im not happy and dont know what i want to do with life anymore..i dont have the slightest idea and moving home is really just making it all seem worse..because i wont have a job and i wont have anything to fill up my day with for a while..i know that ill have to find one but i dont know how long it will take or what ill find or even where ill end up at and its seriously worrying me..oh well .. hmm guess thats all for now..im at work but just waiting for kids to come back and so its going to be a slow day today and i dont care what they do as long as they are behaving and its freezing outside and about to rain and we actually have no schedule today so im not complaining for now ..but jon is coming in and i expect for things to have to be more scheduled then.. but he is late..hows that for a boss?! how can you be late when you knew you had to work today and i bust my butt to get here on time when i dont want to really be here anyway but im on time, im never late..but whatever im doing my job and he had better not complain...but i dont know what they expect us to do with the 5 kids that are here and we are waiting for like 10 to show up through out today..so yea not thrilled about because right now there are 2 of us for 5 kids but then once other kids start showing up we will have to break them back up into there groups and the other group cant be single staffed because it never works out but my group can be for a little while..
but its not my group..so why should i worry and yet i do..because i cant just let that staff get run over ..oh well...you know for all we do and get yelled at about its like the other set of staff are being held to different standards and so they can trash camp and give the kids candy and soda everyday and no one says a thing to them about it...we come on and change the schedule a tad bit and we never hear the end of it and i dont think that is fair at all...the kitchen is a mess ..everywhere is a mess and we will have to clean it up..yea thats real fair..