so it starts

guess ill have to make this quick but my head is all a mess right now..im cursing the fact that i have to move home and at the same time its like haha you asked for it in some stupid way..maybe im just being completely childish and selfish and blowing things way out of poportion..i dont know...last night as i was cooking and helping out in the kitchen mommy comes in and of course starts in about my weight and whether ive gained or lost and ive pretty much stayed the same the past few months but anyway..i was informed that my new years resolution will be to lose weight..funny cas i thought i was supposed to come up with my own if i wanted one or not and guess its sucks for me because now i have one already and its not even jan yet..but its going to be between me, mommy and nia...and im pretty sure nia doesnt even know shes included in it yet...and somehow money will be involved and it will be a monthly thing..person who loses the most gets such and such..its the most outlandish thing ever and so stupid ...why does it have to be such a big deal? who cares what i weigh and what i dont? why does it matter..and i guess its just that its always mattered on some level..nia has fallen from grace for gaining weight and i suck for not losing any..