maybeits a bad thing to be getting so upset over all of this..its not really even getting upset okmaybe it is just about getting upset ..i know im upset..anxious, hungover, annoyed, angry, dejected.i guess im done with being upset and now theres just nothing left .. i call the office and no one is there, jim checked for my check for me and its not there..left a message for linda and she hasnt called me back and once again im stuck waiting..i guess its not important to anyone but me to know that im going to be out an extra 70 bucks because everything going into the bank is going to bounce..and ill be s tuck paying it all off..after working so hard to make sure nothing would bounce again and now im stuck just waiting and watching my account get ruined..fine ill admit defeat..i enjoy being forced to stay in my apartment because i cant waste gas running around doing nothing..maybe its just that i actually cut enough to stop caring .. dont know